Testing Grace

This morning I was spending my devotional time, as I normally do, reading and a bit of praying when something dawned on me.  First, I was reading in Job 2 where Satan goes to God and God offers up his "servant Job".  There is a point in the story where Job's wife tells him to "curse God and die".  Ahem...

Here is how Job responds: “You speak as one of the foolish women speaks. Shall we indeed accept good from God, and shall we not accept adversity?” Seriously Job, how can you maintain that faith?  I'm in awe of your faithfulness to God, thank you for that example.

In light of Job's unfailing faithfulness, it dawned on me that I have been in a state of "Testing Grace" lately.  Here's what I mean; I love my savior, He has given and sustained my life, He has directed my paths and continues to love me despite my struggle to earn it; recently I have been making decisions which aren't clearly directed by Him.  Mary and I have been taking steps blindly and hoping it's the right thing. I feel like I'm walking in a dark room, hoping that one of my steps will reveal some light; all the while feeling like I'm pushing the limits of grace, that at some point Jesus is going to say, "Erik, dude, you haven't been listening."

So, I have some work to do.  I need to spend more time listening to my whispering savior and then move based on that.  Jesus, do your thing... Thanks for your Grace.